«(Soprav)vivevo con solo 500 calorie al giorno» il racconto della modella Liza Golden-Bhojwani

«Quando ho iniziato a prendere peso sono stata sbattuta fuori dalle passerelle». Identikit di Liza Golden-Bhojwani: da skinny a body positive girl.

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«Tutto è iniziato quella volta in cui sono svenuta nel mio appartamento. Avevo mangiato solo un pugno di edamame in tutta la giornata». Liza Golden-Bhojwani ha 17 anni e tutta la carriera (da top model) davanti. Salire e scendere dai catwalk delle capitali della moda è «adrenalina pura». La competizione con le “colleghe” è «una lotta a tutti gli effetti». E gli effetti - che ha raccontato su Instagram - sono diventati virali. Fortunatamente.

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A little flashback Friday action for you. This caption will be long and won't fit, so if you'd like to read please find the rest in the comment section....The left side was me at the start of the peak of my career. My first proper fashion week where I was actually the size I needed to be. I was booking amazing shows that one never thinks they actually could, walking with girls who I once looked up to, it was a serious adrenaline rush...but after fainting one night in my apt whilst preparing one of my very low cal meals (I think it was 20 pieces of steamed edamame if I remember correctly), I called it quits with the diet and workout regime I was put on and decided I could do it on my own. I thought to myself, I can still be this thin, but I'll just eat a little more so I don't feel so horrible. Well, eating a little more turned into eating nearly a bag full of almonds, which then turned into eating full size meals, which then turned into a full blown binge. I was craving every single food you could imagine and I was giving in to every craving even though I knew this was such an important time in my career. I made it through NYFW okay, no one had noticed any weight gain, but by the time I had gotten the LFW I could see the pounds starting to show both in the mirror and on the measuring tape, but I kept quiet obviously not wanting to sabotage myself. I found myself going to the grocery store and picking up raw vegetables to try and make up for the near two week binge I had in NY, but I didn't see any weight coming off no matter how "healthy" I was eating and no matter how many workouts I fit in. MFW came and I knew I was bigger and by bigger I mean a 35.5in hip rather than the 34.5in hip I started with in NY, I played it cool and just pretended everything was normal. I did end up booking shows, Dolce & Gabbana being one of them. Which I afterwards received online criticism about my thighs looking fat...Anyways PFW came about, and I found it impossible to resist those chocolate croissants 🙊 I went on many a casting with one exclusive option being on my schedule, but after meeting the client I knew the reason for me not nailing the gig, my size...

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Il racconto della modella di origini texane inizia parlando della competizione e della scelta di nutrire il suo corpo con meno di 500 calorie al giorno. «Bramando qualsiasi tipo di cibo avessi davanti», Liza vive(va) due anni in bilico tra l’anoressia e il bling bling di una carriera sempre più soddisfacente. Poi, durante la Milan Fashion Week del 2014, la scoperta che diventa tormento. «Durante una prova abiti si sono tutti accorti che ero ingrassata. La gente ha iniziato a criticarmi, a dirmi che sembravo cicciona e basta».

Un tarlo che la distrugge tanto da dentro che da fuori, costretta a dire addio al sogno di diventare una top: «Non riuscivo letteralmente a star dietro a quei ritmi», confessa la modella in un recente post su Instagram dove racconta - per la prima volta senza timori - la sua storia. Pubblicando due foto del suo corpo ridotto a scheletro dalla fame in una, florido e in salute nell’altra, mostra orgogliosa la sua nuova vita da body positive girl. «Dopo quell’atroce esperienza mi sono ripromessa che sarei tornata in passerella, più forte e in forma di prima» continua su Instagram. «Così ho dato l’anima in palestra, ho seguito un regime alimentare sano - da 1200 calorie! Risultato? Addominali scolpiti e senso di sazietà perenne».

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Who has taught us that if we are above even a size 4 we are "fat"? Why do we glorify only one body type? What has made us resort to shaming people who are not that "ideal" body type? What is wrong with the size 10 body in this collage? Does it really disgust us so much? Is the girl with the pointed protruding shoulders really so much more attractive? Because that was me at size 2 ...How about the girl with the black undereyes with the shorts that are almost falling off because they are too big, does she look much more stunning to you? Because that was me at size 0... I was once an ignorant, uneducated, and insecure girl. Who believed in what society told us we needed to live up to in order to "be perfect". I was happy to bust my ass to fit in and tell others that they should as well. But, I was young, naive, clueless, and oblivious to the fact that all that conforming would someday break me down so badly that I would lose my awareness of who I really was and be forced into believing I was a failure. But today, I look at myself and the comparison to my old self and what I see is no longer failure or defeat. I see a healthy young woman, no longer a girl, who has transcended into a happy being with more positivity and love surrounding her than ever before, all because she learned how to love and accept her true self. I'm pretty sure that's not a bad thing 🌟PS- to all the people who like to say my before photos are not me, look at the matching tattoos I didn't just happen to find someone on google who just happened to have the exact same tattoo which is a custom made note to a lost family member. Weight loss & Weight gain drastically change the look of our faces! Accept reality. #loveyourself #bodypositive #beyourself #positivethoughts #mondaymotivation #effyourbeautystandards #lovetheskinyourein #beautybeyondsize #happyvibes

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Esempio di un fashion system sempre più curvy oriented, la Golden-Bhojwani fa parte della rosa di modelle che stanno concretamente cambiando le regole della couture internazionale. Galeotto (anche) un viaggio in India molto molto intenso (incontra la sua dolce metà, marito da quest’anno). «Dopo 3 anni di smarrimento, ho finalmente capito che dovevo tornare a riprendermi il mio lavoro. No matter what!».

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