Sex Diary: Falling for Mr. Wrong
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Rebecca, blogger, 25, on vacation in L.A.
2:00 p.m. Arrive in L.A. for a visit. Excited to see B., a guy I used to secretly hook up with when I lived here a year ago. Havent gotten laid in way too long. Its making me neurotic.
7:00 p.m. Meet some friends, including B., for dinner. Afterward, he drives away. Feeling pretty abandoned.
9:10 p.m. Text B.: Did you want to hang out tonight?
9:12 p.m. He calls. Yes, come over!
11:30 p.m. After a night out with the girls, arrive at B.s. Hes asleep. Im starting to fall for him, but hes never been a fan of commitment. Get in bed.
12:20 p.m. At B.s, whos hanging with his best friend. Friend makes comments about my breasts. Roll my eyes at B. He sort of smiles back. Somethings wrong.
2:30 p.m. Whats going on? I ask. Do you want me to leave? He shakes his head. Turns out, B. needs to have leg surgery. Its official: Im self-absorbed.
6:30 p.m. A night on the town with friends, including B. Run into Kenny, whom Ive slept with a few times. I hug him. Hope B. is watching.
12:00 a.m. At B.s, we have sex. After, I say, Im freaking out. My feelings are involved in this. He bangs his fist against the headboard. We need to have this conversation, he says. But I cant do it right now. Good night.
2:00 p.m. B. has a small party. Hes talking to a gorgeous girl. Decide he is dating her. Pack suitcase and leave.
2:35 p.m. B. calls and asks, What happened? I apologize. Im acting crazy.
5:30 p.m. Run into an ex-boyfriend at restaurant. He says hes engaged without much enthusiasm.
7:00 p.m. We go to a hotel.
7:45 p.m. Ex-boyfriend leaves me cash to cover the room. I never stopped loving you. Ask why he is marrying her. Well, its not like shes not a nice person!
10:50 p.m. Arrive at B.s. He says gorgeous girl is just a friend but confirms hes in no position to be in a relationship. Feel even better about my decision to sleep with ex-boyfriend.
11:45 p.m. Back at home with roommates. Discuss our friends troubled relationships, overlooking the fact that all three of us are still single.
as told to Jessica Grose