Jessie J Heartbreakingly Opened Up About Having a Miscarriage After Deciding to Have a Baby Alone

The singer was so vulnerable on Instagram.

Jessie J performs live on "Good Morning America," on Tuesday, April 29, 2018
(Image credit: Getty/Paula Lobo)

Singer Jessie J has just courageously told the world about her devastating experience of miscarriage. The artist had decided to get pregnant by herself, but sadly lost the pregnancy in the last few days.

"Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying 'seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant,'" the singer wrote on Instagram.

"By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down…

"After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat

"This morning. I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don’t know."

In her grief, Jessie J decided to still play her show in LA on Nov. 24, because she knew it would help her. Ahead of the concert, though, she wanted to be open with her fans about what she was going through.

"What I do know is that I want to sing tonight. Not because Im avoiding the grief or the process, but because I know singing tonight will help me," she continued.

"I have done 2 shows in 2 years and my soul needs it. Even more today. I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it. But in this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn’t ever changed and I have to process this my way.

"I want to be honest and true and not hide what I’m feeling. I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be in this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did it’s best.

"I know myself and I know I would talk about it on stage because that’s who I am. So instead of a tearful emotional speech trying to explain my energy. This feels safer.

"I decided to have a baby on my own. Because it’s all I’ve ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again.

"Im still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming.

"But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok.

"I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don’t.

"It’s the loneliest feeling in the world.

"So I will see you tonight LA.

"I may crack less jokes but my heart will be in the room."

Words of support poured in from Pixie Lott, Laura Whitmore, JoJo, Jordin Sparks, Chrissy Metz and many more.

Iris Goldsztajn
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