Last night, on a very emotional episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians, Kim Kardashian shared the story of her Paris robbery in her own words. The experience was obviously terrifying, but hearing Kim tell her family exactly what happened herself makes the story even more real and harrowing. Here's some of what she shared:
"What I think happened now after thinking about it so much is that there was probably a group of guys that were following us the entire trip. I was Snapchatting that I was home and everyone was going to out, so I think they knew Pascal [Duvier] was out with Kourtney and that I was there by myself...They had this window of opportunity and just went for it."
On the moment she knew something was wrong:
"I was laying in bed like 'Should I wash my face? I'm so tired. I'm in my robe. I need to get up. I need to wash my face.' And then ten minutes later, I was like dozing, dozing, and then I heard pounding up the stairs and I thought it was [Kourtney] and Stephanie [Sheppard, Kim's assistant], drunk," she said to her sisters. Then, in an interview for the show, she added, "I'm calling to them, like, 'Hello? Hello? Hello?' and there's no answer. And then at that moment, when there wasn't an answer, my heart started to get really tense. You know, your stomach just kind of knots up and you're like, 'Okay, what's going on? What's going on?' I knew something wasn't quite right."
On the moment she saw her attackers:
"My door was open like this and then I saw two guys holding another guy down, in police uniforms, but right outside of my bedroom—five feet away. So I slid off my bed and picked up my phone and I'm like, 'I don't know how to call 911 in a different country.' And so I like called Pascal and then the guy came and grabbed the phone from me and threw me on the bed and I was like, 'This is it.'"
On deciding how to act in the moment:
"I was looking at the gun, looking down back at the stairs. I have a split second in my mind to make this quick decision. Am I going to run down the stairs and either be shot in the back—it makes me so upset to think about it—but either they're going to shoot me in the back or if I make it and they don't, if the elevator doesn't open in time or the stairs are locked, then I'm f**ked! There's no way out."
On fearing she would be raped:
"And then, he grabs my legs and I wasn't, you know, I had no clothes on under. He pulled me toward him at the front of the bed and I thought, 'Okay, this is the moment they're going to rape me.' I fully mentally prepped myself—and then he didn't."
On what went through her head when she thought she was going to be killed:
"I just knew that was the moment. They're just totally going to shoot me in the head. I just prayed that Kourtney's going to have a normal life after she sees my dead body on the bed."
Before the episode aired, Kim posted on social media explaining that she chose to share her story on her show as opposed to in an interview because she wanted full control over how it was told.
She also tweeted about how the experience has changed her.
I took a tragic horrific experience and did not let it diminish me, rather grew and evolved and allowed the experience to teach me.March 20, 2017
I can say I've become so much better because of it....thank you for allowing me to share my story tonight #KUWTKMarch 20, 2017
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