Chrissy Teigen Said She's a "Better Person Now" After Her "Unimaginable" Pregnancy Loss

Appearing on The Ellen DeGeneres Show Monday, Chrissy Teigen spoke about the "unimaginable" loss of her son, Jack, in her second trimester of pregnancy.

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  • Chrissy Teigen spoke about losing son Jack while appearing on The Ellen DeGeneres Show Monday.
  • Teigen spoke about her "unimaginable" grief after losing Jack in her second trimester of pregnancy, sharing that the experience made her a "better person."
  • "It was a really transformative thing for me and in a way it really saved me, because I don't think that I would've discovered therapy and then sobriety and this path of feeling good about myself and feeling like a new person," she said.

Appearing on The Ellen DeGeneres Show Monday, Chrissy Teigen spoke candidly about the "unimaginable" loss of her son, Jack (opens in new tab), in her second trimester of pregnancy last September. Teigen spoke about the profound pain of losing Jack, her third child with husband John Legend, while sharing the sweet ways children Luna and Miles remember their brother. She reflected on the "transformative" impact of loss, as People reports (opens in new tab), telling DeGeneres her grief "really saved" her by leading her to therapy and sobriety.

When DeGeneres called Teigen "super brave" for sharing photos from the hospital (opens in new tab) after she and Legend lost their son, Teigen responded, "Looking at those pictures now, it seems like so long ago. And also, of course, everything was such a blur." She added, "Even thinking back to it now, I am still in therapy about it and I'm still coming to terms with it."

"I have maternity clothes, and there are things that I bought for my eighth month and my ninth month," Teigen said. "So it's just hard because he would've been born this week, so you look at those things and you have these constant reminders."

Teigen noted that she was "raised in a household that was very open about loss," adding, "It was a really transformative thing for me and in a way it really saved me, because I don't think that I would've discovered therapy and then sobriety and this path of feeling good about myself and feeling like a new person."

"It's been so beautiful to see my kids, the way they talk about him," she continued. "We'll be going to the beach or something and they'll say, 'Is baby Jack with us right now? Do you think he's up in the clouds?' It's just so beautiful and so sweet."

"You don't ever imagine it happening to you. I think that was what the crazy part was for me. I was like, 'I hear these stories about other people. This kind of stuff doesn't happen to me.' So when it does, you're just so shocked," Teigen shared. "And then you think about all the people that go through it in silence and you get really sad for them."

"You really gain this incredible amount of empathy," she said. "And I really, somehow, think I'm a better person now. And I just have the best support system ever."

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Emily Dixon is a British journalist who’s contributed to CNN, Teen Vogue, Time, Glamour, The Guardian, Wonderland, The Big Roundtable, Bust, and more, on everything from mental health to fashion to political activism to feminist zine collectives. She’s also a committed Beyoncé, Kacey Musgraves, and Tracee Ellis Ross fan, an enthusiastic but terrible ballet dancer, and a proud Geordie lass.