Listening to Dr. Ford's Testimony, People Everywhere Are Heartbroken

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Christine Blasey Ford does not want to be here. She said as much at the beginning of her testimony—that she feels it is her duty, to her country and to the people in it, and that is why she's here. "I am terrified," Dr. Ford admitted, her voice breaking as she began to speak about what she says happened to her at the hands of Brett Kavanaugh, the man President Trump nominated to the Supreme Court. (Kavanaugh denies Dr. Ford's claims.) Watching Dr. Ford force herself to confront a past trauma, in full view of the entire world and an army of men who have already said they don't believe her, is unspeakably hard.

Rachel Mitchell, the prosecutor brought on by Republicans to question Dr. Ford and Kavanaugh, took a moment to acknowledge Dr. Ford's terror. “The first thing that struck me from your statement this morning was that you are terrified. And I just wanted to let you know I’m very sorry," Mitchell said. "That’s not right.”

Even a cursory glance at Twitter during Dr. Ford's brave testimony revealed that women and survivors—many of whom say they're forcing themselves to watch it to honor Dr. Ford and her courage—are finding it exceedingly difficult to behold. How could it not be? Watching someone relive one of the worst moments of their life, knowing that she won't be believed, knowing that the men watching her are actively trying not to engage with her pain—it's impossible not to feel profound empathy.

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Note that Christine Blasey Ford *still,* in this context, felt the need to make a lighthearted joke to ease the palpable discomfort of the men around her. This is the burden of being a woman: at your most vulnerable, most traumatized, it is still your job to make men feel betterSeptember 27, 2018

If you listened to that opening statement by Dr. Christine Blasey Ford, and it did not break your heart, please go see a cardiologist because you have no heart.September 27, 2018

There's something heartbreakingly idealistic about Christine Blasey Ford believing the senators in charge would genuinely want to hear from her before they voted.September 27, 2018

A genuine question: were men out there brought to tears or shaking visceral response by that? Because the messages I have from women, and what's happening in my own apartment, suggest that many many women were.September 27, 2018

I'm imagining there are so, so many women watching Dr. Ford right now, reliving their own horrors like this. Told and untold.This is gut wrenching.September 27, 2018

"Courage is not the absence of fear, it's the assessment that something is more important than fear." Dr. Christine Blasey Ford should not have to do this, but her courage is inspiring to me as a survivor. Thank you, Dr. Ford. #IBelieveSurvivors #KavanaughHearingsSeptember 27, 2018

How could anyone with a heart and in tact soul watch Dr. Ford and not believe her? #KavanaughHearingsSeptember 27, 2018

Dr. Ford, I am in awe of your bravery.September 27, 2018

I’m feeling three emotions right now and I believe this is true for many women:1) Bone-deep, crushing heartbreak for Dr. Ford, for what all women have to do to defend our humanity.2) Exhaustion.3) Rage. Unbridled, seething rage. We will avenge this.September 27, 2018

I am very afraid to fly. Every time I get on a plane, I am triumphing, with the help of therapy and medication, in the face of an immense lifelong struggle. To hear someone suggest by implication that working to overcome a fear means the fear must be exaggerated...I am livid.September 27, 2018

A number of Democratic politicians also shared their support for Dr. Ford and her bravery during the hearing.

I believe Dr. FordSeptember 27, 2018

I believe Dr. Blasey Ford. I believe survivors. I believe women.September 27, 2018

I believe Dr. Christine Blasey Ford. Watch the entirety of her compelling testimony and you will too. https://t.co/S5ICZBJ3BcSeptember 27, 2018

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Jenny is the Digital Director at Marie Claire. A graduate of Leeds University, and a native of London, she moved to New York in 2012 to attend the Columbia University Graduate School of Journalism. She was the first intern at Bustle when it launched in 2013 and spent five years building out its news and politics department. In 2018 she joined Marie Claire, where she held the roles of Deputy Digital Editor and Director of Content Strategy before becoming Digital Director. In her spare time, she writes fiction: her first novel EVERYONE WHO CAN FORGIVE ME IS DEAD was published in February 2024 and became a USA Today bestseller. She has also written extensively about developmental coordination disorder, or dyspraxia , which she was diagnosed with when she was nine.

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