You may not feel inclined to put your thoughts into words. From the look of your astrology, it's all either way too personal, or way too confusing. Yet you need to bring the personal forward into your personal encounters. And one dependable way to get un-confused is to lay out what you're thinking in front of you where you can see it. Start with the basic facts. Ask yourself where you stand with each of the important people who are now in your life. Consider the feeling of your environment. As you do this, you'll begin to clarify your thoughts, which will make it easier to put your perceptions into words, which will help. You might take up the morning pages routine from The Artist's Way—free-write three pages a day, every day, which you don't read for a month or two. You need techniques like this to keep your mind awake and alert.
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